RockyDeGuzman

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The Diary Of Sybella

January 20, 2014

Be Honest by Jason Mraz

This song pretty much sums it up on what I’m going through right now.


Ok go, go hang your heart on, any tree,
You can make yourself available to anybody,
Cause every livin’ person knows you are a prize,
Whichever way you go I’ll be easy to find,
I don’t ask for much, just be honest, with me
I don’t ask for much

Think of this song as a promise you can do what you want,
If you decide you wanna move into a new stage,
Deleting me from pages in your mission statement,
My love is unconditional, make no mistake,
I don’t ask for much, just be honest, with me,
I don’t ask for much, just be honest, with me,

Who we are, when love is what it wants to be,
We are free, and we are, having the best day ever by far,
Being treated to the light, like a superstar

I can hold space while you see what your heart has to say about me,
I acknowledge you for what you do to keep strong,
There’s no dotted line to sign away your freedom,
I’ll always stand beside you, don’t get me wrong,
I don’t ask for much, just be honest, with me,

Who we are, when love is what it wants to be,
We are free and, we are, having the best day ever by far,
Being treated to the light, like a superstar

If I miscommunicated I apologies,
If the picture that I painted wasn’t very nice,
My love is standing by you whatever you decide,
I don’t ask for much, just be honest, with me,
I don’t ask for much, just be honest, with me

Who we are, when love is what it wants to be,
We are free, and we are having the best day ever by far,
Yes we are… Yes we are…

The Diary Of Sybella

January 17, 2013

So I’ve decided to post on what I’m going through right now. Each post that I will make starting today is for someone who I dearly love and miss so much. Her friends call her “The Lady Of Secrets”. I’ve known her for a year and eight months now. I fell in love with her since I saw her back in February 2012. Since we’ve been together we argue a lot, some of which are just non sense, but most of the time it’s because she’s always moody, but hey girls are moody right? I can’t blame them for being like that specially when its their time of the month. So anyway me and her have our differences. But hey despite all our arguments and differences I have to admit I do still love her with all my heart. Right now our relationship is a little bit rocky. We haven’t spoken in 6 days and I have to say that I’m starting to miss her like a lot a lot. The last time we spoke was like a week ago and she told me that “ I still love you. I still wan’t to be with you. You’re still the man that I want to marry, but I cant take care of you right now. Let me just fixed this thing that I’m going through right now and I will com back to you. ” That’s what she said. I’m not gonna lie I was hurt and upset and disappointed. I kept on asking her can you give me any assurance that you will come back to me and I’m still the one you want to be with . And she just said that “ you just have to trust me”. So until now those words “THAT YOU JUST HAVE TO TRUST ME” are the only words that I’m holding on too.

I could wait. I’m going to wait for her. Even if it takes me forever. She made a mark on my heart that is tough for me to forget about her. I only had a few serious relationships in the past but my relationship with her is one of a kind. I don’t know why. I just can’t explain it.

I miss her. I miss everything about her. Her smile. Her voice. Her laughs. Her sexy body. The way she makes me laugh. Everything.

I keep praying every night before I go to bed that hopefully one day we could be back together and start something new.

I don’t think I can have another relationship. All I want is her. She’s the one that I want to marry and have kids with. She’s the one I want to be with for the rest of my life, theres no doubt about that.

If you are reading this The Lady Of Secrets. All of this is real. I do miss you like crazy and I do still love you. No matter how many heart aches I’ve been through no matter how many times you’ve pushed me away, I still love you. You are the only person who I want in my life and the only person who can make me happy. You may unfollow me, you may not talk to me anymore and just leave me hanging without any sign of us being back together, that’s fine. If that’s your choice i have to respect that. But put this in mind that there is no other guy like me who love you with all his heart.

Remember The Lady Of Secrets I’m still here waiting for you. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.